Good in the sense that for some reason I feel that I have a place. And I know that sounds awfully profound but the things I have been stewing on now feel, like they are put to bed.
I met someone today, and perhaps felt like I should be striving to be part of something that this person was. I was possibly a mild curiosity. Eager, without resolve, without connections, finance and the potential for those things.
Keeping in mind, all this was me, thinking/feeling these things.
But surprisingly although put out I have just watched something that has moved me in such a way that I feel like I've hit a note. A very personal note.
And yes this all sounds very cryptic, and what the hell is she going on about.....I know I know......
But I keep trying to bench mark myself and yes my bar is high and yes that's who I am - but perhaps there is more to the way I do things, that I have just clicked into.
I am truly finding a sense of myself. And sense is the key word.
This will need to sit with me for a while. And I will quietly let it play out.
Wonder and Hope.
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