Leap of faith

So I've just done my first 'proper' photography event/shoot - whatever you'd like to call it.

How did it go? 

Hmmmm well, a few extremely anxious days, teeny tiny bit of stress, a whole lots of photos, sore shoulders and I would say that it went okay.

Could I have done better?  Highly likely.  However I figure that you have learn from everything, good and bad.  And it was mainly good.

I'm certainly not raving about how fantastic I am.  I have yet to get the photos to the "client" and they might not be up to scratch.  So who knows!  Lets just watch this space'.

But I guess the reason I thought it was important to blog about it is that I was totally out of my comfort zone.  I like taking photos.  I take lots of my children, landscapes, nieces and nephews.  Of other peoples kids at parties.  Family functions.  And I enjoy it.  I am learning.  While juggling everything else I have tried to do more with it but my timing is a bit off.  It doesn't bother me though.  I know I can take my time and keep on going.

The reason I got so out of my depth though, was someone elses faith in my ability.  And probably if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have done it.  And I have to say, it's a pretty cool feeling when someone else thinks you'd do okay......even if secretly you think you won't!  So if nothing else it's worth a Thank you! (Thank you K and AW!!)

Who knows what will come of this.  Possibly nothing.  I'm not sure if I'm ready for anything else right now.  But what I do know, what I have learned from this is that being out of my comfort zone, being pushed to try something new and taking a mammoth leap of faith is that I am up for a challenge.  And that has given me a great sense of confidence. 

Hanging out with the "cool" crowd

I'm not a "cool" person.  I'm me. 

I don't fit in a certain group.  I'm just me.

I'm not in to choosing friends because of where they are in the social climbing ladder, what car they drive, where they live or how much money they earn.  I choose friends because I like to hang out with them.  They are fun to be with, supportive, kind, funny and we have a mutual respect and understanding for one another.

I recently had the 'privilage' of attending an event that I thought I should go to, even though I wasn't all that fussed about it.  My sense of obligation got the better of me and so I went. 

I think I knew I was out of my depth but stay anyway (wine made me brave).......but I learnt a number of things which I thought I would share.

Firstly if it doesn't sit right with you, you think you'd rather stay home and cut your toe nails, you probably should.  No point putting yourself out there for something that's not enjoyable.

Don't get caught up in other peoples egos.  While at this event I could see things unfold that I had to laugh at.  The whole social agenda, two faced, who's who nonsense is all about ego and it's rather amusing.  Why would you want to get involved in that?

Be yourself.  Yep it's an age old saying but it's true.  People like you for you.  I don't drive the flashest car but my friends are happy to be seen driving in it with me not because of the car because we are together, going somewhere and are likely to be laughing!

For some people life is a show.  It's a series of acts to wow people.  And we all know how flaky some actors are (expect johnny Depp).  Enough said.

I know that while I can smile and do and say the right things to get by I'm not like that.  I don't want to be.  In some respects it felt like going back to high school.  But you know what?  I'm older and wiser than back then.  I'm not buying into that.

In a way it was a good reminder.  Be who you are not who you think you should be.  I'm just me.